A table for four person, Dad, Mom, Sis, and I It is definitely the best graduation present that I can ask for
29th July 2016, I took my flight back to Jakarta. Mixed feelings came out: happy, sad, excited, curious... But then again, I remember it's been almost half a year. I miss my dad, miss my mom and of course my big sister.
At the time I arrived, the humidity welcomes me. Gosh, I forgot how hot my hometown was. With all the wind, we still need air conditioner everywhere. Even inside the airport, the temperature disturbs me a bit. I took uber to drove me home, and guess what? It took me 3 hours to get me home, well not exactly home because my dad picked me up. I was so happy to meet him, after all these months.
One month and a half is surely fast. I didn't even notice how much I did for these few weeks. I met some new people, I met some old friends. I even tried to meet every single of my social circle, well obviously I couldn't make it, but at least I tried.
The best thing about this holiday is... My graduation. After 1 year studying abroad, in Paris, in Europe, finally I can transfer some subjects to fulfill the requirements to get my degree, bachelor degree. Well after took care of some things for the graduation ceremony, I finally got my degree Sarjana Humaniora, at 25th of August. It was really touching, well you see, I met my friends with the same year, and I was really happy that I could graduate with the same year with them. The next best thing on the list is when I had dinner with my family. Having a divorced parents in Indonesia isn't as easy as it seems, especially when it ended with a conflict. A table for four person, Dad, Mom, Sis, and I. It is definitely the best graduation present that I can ask for.
Another thing that makes me happy is... When I had a chance to meet my girls, I mean like seriously. They are the love of my life, the sprinkles to my cupcakes! My college and my junior high friends never let me down.
Also, my friends that I met in Paris. Some of them already returned to Indonesia for good. To continue their living, their work and so on. What a relief to see them again, grab some drinks and having small talks, or even big projects. My blessing is always with them, I hope we could grow together, even though separately, in our own direction to become a successful person in the future.
I also spent much time to satisfy my tongue, Indonesian cuisine never disappoint me. Well this time I'm 10 times more careful. Last time I got back home in March, I got toxicated. I will share what I ate in my page.
I'm afraid that my blog isn't too segmented. Which means, too general for specific people to follow.
But then I realised, I write for my own happiness. Just to express what's on my head. I don't care what people may think (well I'm trying my best not to care). I even don't know why I'm writing this. In fact, I'm afraid of many of things, and I believe that's normal. Afraid of spiders, afraid of bloods, afraid of people ended up hating me, afraid of hurting people, afraid of disappointing someone, afraid of being stupid and lack of knowledge, and so much more. The truth is, I don't know those are fears or, insecurities.
Having an image in social media isn't that easy, although I'm not that highlighted anymore there are still some rumors and gossips around. Still, some people mostly know me from social media or from what I do in life. It leads to a big decision each time I want to put something on my page. For me, entertaining people is as important as entertaining myself.
"When you finished your master degree, you should find a job there. Maybe after, I will move there as well" - Dad.
Imagine a life far from where I was born is kind of hard. You see, at the time I moved here for the double degree program, I never thought about anything like this. What's on my mind was probably how to survive, how to live, how to socialize, how to make friends and more importantly, how to finish my degree without doing any stupid things.
And then after I know how to survive, after I made some friends, after I knew how to socialized and finally had the results of my grades, which I passed (yeay!), I have to plan another things. Maybe this is what they called being an adult.
Don't get it wrong but I do love Paris. So much. Like so much. But, I think it's more like years for study not to... Finally make a living and move here. There are so many things I will missed, in life, ordinary Indonesian life, like I used to live for years...
But then, plans are plans. No matter how much we get ready for it, still, plans. A future thing we won't know the truth yet. And it will, probably, change. I don't know. Even I'm good with tarot cards I can't predict my own life.
You know, it's almost May and everything seems to run smoothly
Well, when you almost get it how to live somewhere so far away from your hometown. Don't you get it somehow? Like torn between wanna going home and wanna stay?
The thing is, Paris is just so beautiful. Well you can get almost everything here. Actually one of the thing that I will miss here is actually how concerning people are on health. The fact is, here in Paris, or maybe in France and in Europe in general... People pay so much attention to what they eat, and how they exercise.
You know when you hit the gym and you see people there workout regularly even they already lose so many pounds and like you see so many bio products! YES I LOVE THEM!
In fact, in Indonesia I crave so big for healthy fresh organic foods. Well if you live in big cities like Jakarta, is not really easy to find fresh veggies and stuffs. But here, in Paris with all the bio markets and bio products, it's like I just got my question answered! Even if you know where to buy it, you could buy cheaper things than the usual products.
I'm so inspired right now, well actually I'm writing a page for a monthly magazine, it's an online magazine in Indonesia and seriously I'm gonna discuss about this.
You know sometimes... Life is not as easy at it seems. Some days, it just easier to fake it with smile or laugh. Some other days you just wanna lock yourself in your room and crying out loud.
Neither do my life, there are days when I just wanna do nothing, nothing and nothing but sleeping. Turn off my phone and disconnect myself from the world. Geez, I believe I sound so desperate and a bit melancholic right now, but hey! That's the truth. Living all by yourself is not as easy as it seems, even though you live in a big and beautiful city like Paris. Thus, this is my very first time living all by myself... I don't know why I had this on my mind lately but sometimes it's just, look, I'm just tired with life? Everyone had that once in a while. Maybe now is my turn
Since I started my university life in 2012, I almost never had some free time. I joined some organisations both in and outside university. Well there are several things that I love so much like becoming the vice-president in the organisation of my year, joining Rotarct Semanggi which is a part of Rotary International and also participating in so much events as volunteers or partially working in the concerts, summits or conferences.
Being busy in 2013 doesn't really stop me to become more and more productive and having my leisure time. I enjoy my busy life actually, and I really consider myself doing well under pressure. In the middle of my busy days, I tried to do some sports, took Zumba and Salsa class, practicing my tarot and astrology things... AND finally I had this opportunity, when I'm searching some things to do, I looked up in the internet and I see that a community, named Light Givers is looking for volunteer in the marketing division. I don't mind doing that so I applied... Turns out that Light Givers is a community that handles services in Tarot Reading... I feel like the angels just came on the right time. After several weeks helping, I start to handle clients personally (re: reading tarot cards for them).
When I have nothing to do... I start to do something in other world: the internet. I started to be active in the social media since 2013, well I'm on several networks already like Facebook and Twitter but I want to try something else. So I tried to look at ask.fm. It's a platform when we can ask someone anonymously or we can also show our identity. But you know, sometimes it's fun not to show who you really are.......
After tried it several weeks, I started to realise that people has their own style and content in ask.fm. So I tried to blow up and share so much things that I do... Like my daily life, my knowledge in so many domains, especially in astrology and tarot reading. In a short time, it was a big hit. People, fortunately, love my page and since that time... I start to reap the benefits of my page. I put all my social media and make the Tarot Appointments there. 2014 & 2015 are my two busiest years... I never really get a day to rest, I handled my clients almost everyday and sometimes I have more than 6 clients a day. I believe my level on independence rose so much because I started to go several cities in the country by myself to meet my clients and also to have vacations.